Was just walking to work from the BART and saw an ambulance and fire truck on the corner of Embarcadero 1. After passing the ambulance, I saw all the medical equipment on the sidewalk. As I walked more, I saw a body bag. What a weird feeling. I started getting goosebumps. I don’t think I’ve ever saw a dead person in public before – in funerals and television and movie, yeah – but I’ve never seen it in real life in public.

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I decided I must start working out again. Especially with the new year. Since we were slow at work, I went to the gym for lunch. I forgot my deodorant, so I had to stop by a nearby Walgreens to get some. Once I got to the gym and started to suit up. I forgot my shorts, and they no longer sold clothing at the gym, so I had to pack my stuff again… I was gonna just forget my workout, but I was determined. I went next door to Gap. Nothing. I finally got some shorts at Speedos. A little pricey, but hey… what do you do. By this time it started to pour rain. Man! But I didn’t care. I went back to the gym and suited up for my first workout in over 3 months.

I gained weight. When I was regularly working out about 2 years ago, I was down to 147 lbs. Normally I’m at 150 or so… Now I weight in at 158. Which I truly can feel. (My love handles ar just a bit bigger than I want).

Workout was tiring, but energizing… I only could run for a little while… only about 20 minutes and I couldn’t handle more… I’ll slowly build up to maybe 35 minute or so… Hopefully I’ll lose some weight…

Slept late after New Years (around 5:30)… and for some reason got up relatively early for a non-work day (around 10:30). I guess I’ve been sleeping so much the past few days, it’s giving me a headache.

Got my Diet Coke, a cig and my digital camera and started to take pictures of my fishes. My cats are on my online photo album under pets… why shouldn’t I have my fishes too.

I then started to photograph my plants too. I got several baby cacti and succulents for the holidays and thought it would be good to see how they grown over the years. My inspiration was a photo on my cat that I was looking at over the weekend. I noticed my plants in the background and some were babies in the pictures have grown considerably. I just thought it was neat.

Later in the day I hopped on the AC Transit, then BART, then Muni to join some friends for brunch at this place near the Castro called Grub… Brunch was good and it was so nic to see friends who I haven’t hung out with in a while. My only complaint was some hair and lint I found in my drink. It was so gross, but we got all our drink comped.

We decided to see Beauty and the Beast on the IMAX screen in Metreon, but damn, there were so many people. The lines were so long and we ended up watching Kate and Leopold… which was a cute romantic comedy.

Got home and took a jog… It’s been several months since I worked out. We the new year, I should try to get back into shape, so this is my beginning. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been, and I so wanna get rid on my big tummy which I got even before the holidays. Hopefully I can wake up early tomorrow and see if I get to the gym before work. We’ll see if that happens.

I kinda have mixed feelings to the the New Year.

At times I feel like being sad (since I just had a recent breakup), but we remain friends, and I’m thankful of that. When I tell friends about it, I don’t really like to go into the details of why. I simple opt to tell them that he’s young and can’t give 100% to a relationship right now. He still has alot to go through. Basically, we aren’t at the same point in our life. I get different reactions, most of which is not a surprise. Not that many “Awww, I’m so sorry – will you be okay” though… They probably know that things will be okay, and at least I made a very good friend thought this. (Funny how many of my ex’s have become good friends)

I’m surprised that I haven’t been really depressed though. Maybe if I was back in college and younger and not sure of myself. I see myself now as being lucky. I start this year going back to a job that I love, I can pay for rent and bills (although I don’t have that much left for luxuries), I’m getting freelance jobs up the ying-yang, and I’m doing thing around the house to make my apartment more like a home. So I count my blessings and am thankful for what I have.

I feel excited. There’s alot of things I want to accomplish in the next few months. I’ll write more about them later.

But for now, I’m feel sleepy… and after spending New Years Eve alone at home talking on the phone and watching sit-coms the ball drop in Time Square, I must get to bed.